Abandoned House

Beautiful Old House

Like any visual artist worth their salt, I immediately knew when I saw this old wooden house that I would have to capture a few images of it. With my jaw ajar in amazement and Charlotte waiting patiently for me in the car, I was seriously tempted to break a few laws and climb inside and look around. Soulfulness.

We’re back in Malmö again after five terrific days along Sweden’s west coast with excellent summer weather. I feel like I’ve had my fill of shrimp sandwiches (and schnapps) for a while…

klipporna i bohuslän

A Long Midsummer Weekend

This was my view last night at about 10:00 pm on the island of Tjörn. We’re still coasting along the spectacularly beautiful Swedish west coast after celebrating Midsummer’s Eve thoroughly with old friends and several new acquaintances. This turned out to be a good way to distract our minds from our traditional Midsummer venues in Vejbystrand.

As a teenager and young tween, I spent significant time sailing, hiking and camping in the archipelago of Bohuslän. First as a scout leader and then with friends. We’d borrow or rent a sizable boat and sail between islands, islets, and coastal villages where we’d anchor for the night and with some luck, find a boat party to crash.

I haven’t sailed in quite a while and like a lot of stuff from yesteryear, I miss it. The last time I was part of a “crew” was in San Diego Bay during a lavish press trip. I spent a full day of match racing on one of two giant boats that had previously been part of the America’s Cup competitive sailing circuit.

Even counting all the amazing places I’ve been fortunate to have experienced so far, Bohuslän maintains its stable pole position as one of a handful of places I can’t get enough of and always look forward to returning to. At least in the summertime.

This year, I’m supporting Charlotte with visuals from a few choice destinations on the islands of Tjörn and Orust.


Midsummer 2023

I haven’t eaten herring (sill), boiled potatoes (kokt potatis), or chilled schnapps (snaps) in a long time. So while we won’t be celebrating Midsummer in Vejbystrand (from where the above short film was shot) this year, there won’t be a shortage of all the good stuff that makes this remarkable (ancient) holiday worth looking forward to.

Happy Midsummer!
Painter Joakim Lloyd Raboff

Finishing up “Old Glory 1776”

This is a frame grab from a short, vertical film I shot yesterday while painting the final strokes on “Old Glory 1776”, the last art piece to be created in the Pop Up Gallery here in Malmö.

Elle's Graduation Party

Back in 2019…

This photograph was taken in 2019, four years ago as Elle arrived home to her celebration party after graduating from High School in 2019. If time flies when you’re having fun, I must have had an absurd amount of fun since that scene was taken. Lucky for me, my adult memories are kinda like short movie trailers, mostly compiled of fun, remarkable highlights.

We had Elle over for our weekly dinner last night. Three well-acquainted adults enjoying the present, talking about the future and remembering gold nuggets from the past. I made poke bowls topped with my signature tuna-mayo-wasabi concoction. We ate dinner on our back patio (where Elle’s graduation party took place) and then moved to the frontside to watch another gorgeous sunset in the sea.

Pop Up Gallery

Closing: Pop Up Gallery

As implied by the name, I wanted to open up a provisional, post-pandemic creative space in our neighborhood. So, today, after four months, I’m closing the Pop-Up Gallery. The gallery is open today 12-16 if you want to drop by and say hi.

The space has facilitated a really smooth transition back to my creative roots as a more hands-on visual artist and painter. I am grateful for all the visitors and thrilled that so many found the gallery and bought my work. Thank you!


Painting: Epiphany Nr 1

The main reason I titled this piece “Epiphany Nr 1” is because I wanted to visually express how much of my abstract paintings evolve. There’s usually no “master plan” or “objective” unless I have a given theme, like with my ongoing numerical series.

For the most part, I create through a combination of small, more or less conscious movements driven by fleeting thoughts that are somehow supported by a series of spontaneous epiphanies. I get an idea and apply it to the canvas. If it works, I move on. If it doesn’t, well, I either leave it for a spell or paint over it.

Cheese Doodles

Music For Painting

Here are a few tunes that I’ll typically hear during the course of a painting session. How long is a typical painting session, Joakim? Well, it can last anywhere from one to five, or at best six hours. It all depends on the flow. I realized at the onset that my return to drawing and painting my primary way of expressing myself creatively was going to take time. No illusions. But what’s super interesting is that once I think I’ve captured my painter’s mojo, it slips from my grip – if I’m not paying attention. This tells me that I need to focus less on other creative mediums and focus more on painting.

I don’t know exactly why I picked Cheese Doodles to illustrate this post. Possibly because I often use asymmetrical patterns and the color orange in my artwork. Both of which I associate with jazz music. Or, just because I happen to enjoy Cheese Doodles once in a while. Go figure.

Re:Surfaced:Albania

Resurfaced in Tirana Albania

Of all the Eastern European cities I’ve experienced so far, Tirana was exceptionally interesting. The locals were extremely friendly, the food was good and there was a surprising amount of things to check out there. And as far as discovering artifacts for the Resurfaced project is concerned, Tirana turned out to be quite the bonanza.

Monkey Business

Human Monkey Business

I captured these two monkeys a few years ago deep inside a national park in South East Asia. Keep reading and you’ll soon understand why I chose this somewhat bizarre image to illustrate this strange post.

When I woke up this morning, I remembered unusually large chunks of what I had dreamt. As is usually the case when I do recall dreams, which is rare, there was no motion or sound. It’s more like still images or screenshots. As I was going through the two or three visuals that remained in my memory, an interesting thought popped up.

At present, artificial intelligence is only capable of producing stuff that is somehow based on or a derivative of the knowledge that we humans have supplied or made accessible to the computers that host the AI software. Which is basically the same fundamental prerequisite for our dreams.

Dreams are dependent on what we experience while awake. Some argue that even a fetus can dream from what it experiences in the womb. I don’t know if I buy into that theory.

But I am pretty sure that if humans lived in a total void with zero stimuli, our brains would likely not be able to generate any dreams. At some point our brains might be capable of accessing genetically stored stuff (instincts, smells, or sounds?) and somehow create a bare minimum of stimuli, just to keep us from shutting down entirely and croaking.

Perhaps our brains – as well as the brains of many other mammals (and even birds!) are the OG of AI. And if we allow something to alter our circuitry (neural pathways and axon-collaterals), we could finally evolve beyond our present just-barely-beyond-monkey phase where tribalism inevitably leads to war, devastation, and possibly annihilation of our species (and the planet!).

See how the above photo makes at least a little sense now?

Anyway…

As surreal as my dream was last night, which, incidentally, took place on a hot, stormy beach surrounded by snowy hills, the “cast” and the scenery were easily recognizable and left me with a much stronger visual memory than anything I’ve seen generated so far by DAL-E 2, Midjourney or Dream Studio.

Running from the Clouds

Running from the Clouds

Early Saturday morning run in fantastic weather. I aim to be below 6 minutes per kilometer before I hit 60 next month. Running is hard and painful; honestly, I had to spend some time convincing myself to head out there today. But once I was done, the gray clouds that at times insistently hover above me are dispersed and I feel a whole lot better. Running is not for everyone and I can only do it when the temperature is favorable for my body. But as far as exercise goes, it’s by far the most effective way to keep good thoughts and creativity flowing freely and fluidly. Believe me when I say that I’ve tried and failed with many other methods.

Birthday themed painting

New Numerical Painting

This is a new painting with a numerical (birthday) theme that I’m currently working on. It’s a work in progress, so it might change over the next few weeks or whenever I feel it’s finished. Even if I am way too illogical and irrational to be good at anything but rudimentary math, I am fascinated with numbers.

Since the Pop-Up Gallery is closing in a few weeks, this might be one of the last art pieces I create there. Come July, I’ll have returned to my home studio. At least until I find a new space to rent. While certainly large enough for painting – by a wide margin – the current location on Hallenborgs gata turned out to be way too desolate. At least for an art gallery. Ce la vie.

Sweden's Birthday

Sweden’s Birthday!
Just back from a long run in the early morning sun.

Thought of something during my jog around Malmö. Today’s the 45th time I’m celebrating Sweden’s National Day since moving to Sweden in 1978. It’s also the 20th National Day since I became a naturalized Swede. I do still have my American citizenship if for no other reason than that having a US passport is still pretty cool (and it makes visiting my old homeland a whole lot easier).

I love Sweden. I really do. This country has been good to me and I’ve tried to be a decent, responsible citizen, both as an ordinary taxpayer and as a small business owner (which is not always easy).

Much has changed since I relocated to this remarkable land. I won’t mention anything here, after all, it is Sweden’s birthday and you don’t criticize on a birthday.

I’ve been lucky to have lived in some of this country’s most amazing places, including Gothenburg on the west coast, Riksgränsen in the far north, the island of Visby off the east coast, and for the last two-plus decades, Malmö and Vejbystrand down in the deep south.

As with most relationships, taking a break can often be a great way to reinvigorate one’s passion for a place or a friend. Together with my small family, I’ve had the opportunity to live abroad on a few occasions. And each time we’ve returned, our appreciation for Sweden has been instantly rekindled.

For all its meteorological, political,, and cultural shortcomings, there’s still no doubt in my mind and heart that Sweden is one of the best countries in the known world, at the very least one of the most beautiful.

And though I am generally skeptical about the whole nationalism thing, I will humbly raise my glass tonight for Sweden and hope that everyone else that this most generous country has opened its doors to will do the same.

Cheers Sweden!

Gröna Lund in Stockholm

Swinging Stockholm

After so many years (decades) in Sweden, this is about as close to Stockholm’s amusement park Gröna Lund I’ve ever been.

Went for a long run this morning along the water in Hammarby Sjöstad where we’ve rented a small aparthotel for a spell. This is our second longer stay in the district and we seem to enjoy it more for each time.

After some research with some surprising data, it turns out that Hammarby Sjöstad is significantly bigger than Malmö’s Västra Hamnen. In fact, it’s much bigger. And despite covering a larger area where almost ten times more people live, it still seems like a lot more thoughtful and smart urban planning has gone into designing Hammarby Sjöstad. Including considerably more greenery, more restaurants and more storefronts for local businesses.

Västra Hamnen is at least a decade away from being completed and still has a lot of really ugly and unexploited former industrial lots, Hammarby Sjöstad is more or less on the finish line.

On the flip side, Hammarby Sjöstad isn’t as easily accessible for folks that don’t live here and as far as I can tell, there aren’t any places where residents or visitors can go for a swim.

Stockholm in Spring

Spring in Stockholm

The sky was blue with little fluffy clouds was nice but chilly when the ancient train finally pulled into the Swedish capital’s central station late yesterday afternoon. I’ve always found it hard not to be impressed by the larger scale of everything here in Stockholm. Especially when coming from provincial Malmö.

It was cold and icy when Elle and I were here in March, but we still had an excellent visit. But it is this time of year when Stockholm really shines.

Fountain of Youth

Fountain of Youth

This is from a fountain in the old town of Marbella. I tried capturing the fountain’s water drops just a few short weeks before the pandemic shut down Spain and much of the known world. For some reason unbeknownst to me, when I saw the image in my archive yesterday – and because associations often work in mysterious ways, I linked it with the mythological Fountain of Youth.

Shortly after, and mostly on a curiosity-fueled whim, I spoke with a couple of representatives from Sweden’s Department of Retirement. Both sounded conspicuously young and I think I would have been considerably more comfortable talking to someone roughly my age. Whatever.

As I was told by a polite woman from Luleå named Cecilia, it turns out that I’m eligible for retirement payment, Sweden’s National Pension Fund (Social Security in the US), when I turn 64, i.e. in four years.

Hm. Re-reading the above paragraph kinda freaks me out. Retirement? WTF?

I don’t think I’ll ever retire. Not in a traditional sense. It’s not like I have a choice. Creativity is a Pandora’s box. Once opened, I don’t think I can ever really close it. At least not until the mortician has powdered my nose and my coffin’s lid is nailed down or, more likely, I’ve been shoved into the furnace.

Some of my older friends have already retired and after some adjustment time, they seem to be enjoying their newfound freedom just fine. We’ll see.

New Painting: Artificial Delirium

New Painting: Artificial Delirium
Here’s a new painting aptly titled Artificial Delirium. It’s 60 x 90 cm and I painted it on traditional canvas with traditional acrylic paint. The idea for the painting came to me after reading several articles about Artificial Intelligence. While I’m far from smart enough to understand the inner workings, I have no problem whatsoever immagining some potential applications.

Like a lot of people, I can’t help but wonder (and worry) about where Artificial Intelligence is going to take us. Is it another Y2k hoax? Skynet? A mix of both? Some really smart science folks are very concerned about how the accelerated evolution of the technology might go so fast that it could be too late to do anything once we realize the shit has already hit the fan.

I’ve used ChatGPT on multiple occasions and feel lucky not to have to compete for writing gigs anymore. And with Adobe’s latest release of Generative AI in Photoshop, it’s clear to see (at least to me) how professional photographers and filmmakers will eventually become less important in the visual storytelling process.

According to Geoffrey Hinton, a scientist formerly employed by Google and considered to be the “Grandfather of Artificial Intelligence”, if we don’t regulate this rapidly evolving technology immediately, it will become an existential threat to the human species. Geoffrey Hinton paints a dismal future and several doomsday scenarios in this interesting interview.

I just got done watching Netflix’s excellent documentary “Chimp Empire” While following the intrigues within and between the two groups of chimps in the series, I kept thinking about how sparingly humans have evolved from our distant relatives. Financial, political, and physical threats and brutal acts of violence are still our preferred way to settle disagreements and manifest perspectives, and opinions. Nuts!

What happens when a not-too-distant future version of AI comes to a seemingly logical conclusion that humans can no longer be allowed to roam freely on a planet they so clearly are incapable of managing without destroying?

What if we humans, which quantifiably are a relatively small species on Earth, have reached our peak potential? Maybe it’s time for artificial intelligence to take over the steering wheel, to, you know, sort out and start solving the mess we’ve created. The future’s so bright, I gotta wear shades.

Aerial view of canola fields in southern Sweden

Blooming Canola Fields in Sweden

Here’s an aerial view of the canola fields in southern Sweden with Malmö and Västra Hamnen in the background. I’ve not had an opportunity to enjoy the canola flowers up close this spring, but there are plenty of images stored in my archive with photos and footage of the beautiful, blooming yellow flowers captured from both the air and ground throughout southern Sweden. I’m considering a book totally dedicated to canola flowers which I might be tempted to give a title along the lines of “Mellow Yellow” or “Raboff’s Rhapsody in Yellow”.

Making salad with a Kitchen Aid food processor

Kitchen Aid and Long Lasting Brand Loyalty

If you know me well enough, you’ll know that one of my creative pursuits is cooking. While I’m not particularly interested in making fancy or too complicated meals, most of my signature dishes are usually appreciated and most arguably qualify as tasty comfort food.

I am of a generation that tends to be almost ridiculously loyal to a few choice brands, including Apple (computers, phones, earphones), Levis (jeans, Patagonia (sweaters), Uniqlo (socks, tees), Muji (storage), Scarpa, (shoes) Winsor & Newton (paint), Paderno (cookware), Red Wing (boots), Clark’s (shoes).

I just realized that several of my all-time favorite brands are related to cooking, including a couple of chef’s knives from Wüsthof, a trusty blender from Vitamix which I use on a daily basis to create our morning smoothie, and, the above pictured, decade-old Kitchen Aid food processor. The photo is from when I was just about to blend a bunch of veggies for our Sunday evening dinner salad.

What distinguishes all of the above brands and the only real reason why I continue to be loyal to the companies behind these utilitarian products is the simple fact that they’ve provided a level of durability and usefulness that makes them worthy purchases. Not always, but I mostly still believe that you get what you pay for.

A tribute to my Swedish Grandmother Agnes on Swedish Mother's Day

Mother’s Day (in Sweden)

It’s Mother’s Day here in Sweden. So many great tributes from loving daughters and sons to celebrate their mothers. I can’t help but feel a little blue on a day like this.

My Swedish mother was never really my mother. Biologically, yes. But not much more than that. When so many friends congratulate their mothers, all I feel are the jumbled emotions of emptiness and anger. Emptiness because I can’t relate to the whole wonderful mother-child thing and anger from being assigned such a lemon of a mother.

But at some point during my brief self-pity session today, I remembered Agnes Andersson, my mother’s mother. A woman who was often more of a mother to me than she was my grandmother. She could be that too, but most of my memories of Grandma Agnes are from the many moments when she helped me understand what unconditional love was, which has ever since helped me accept and share love.

As unlucky as I remember feeling as a kid about having been dealt such a terrible mother, today I feel all the more fortunate to have at least had such a wonderful grandmother. Agnes was an amazingly strong woman with a beautiful, contagious smile and the most gentle, kind eyes. She also had great hair. Agnes laughed often and would never get angry at me. She obviously knew where I was coming from emotionally and decided that I wasn’t a lost cause. That I could learn to accept love and eventually give it away just as unconditionally as she did.

As one often does in hindsight, I am probably glorifying Agnes Andersson. So be it. But honestly, I have zero memories from my time with her that are anything but loving and joyous. No big surprise that I insisted on giving our daughter Elle her name.

In addition to what was certainly a tough life in the various farms she and my grandfather Eskil had in several areas of southwestern Sweden during the 1940s-1970s, Agnes also gave birth and raised four daughters. As far as I know, only Lillian is still alive. Be she excommunicated herself from the family a long, long time ago. Ce la vie.
So, today, I’ll raise my glass to Agnes Andersson. Grandmother, mother, and a generous, compassionate human being that gave me the greatest gift of all, love.