Los Angeles Book

In the works: Los Angeles Book

Here’s the blurb for a new book I’ve worked on for about three months. I completed the project last week and the book should be published in just a few weeks.

Update: The fires raging through L.A. and Ventura counties are a tragedy beyond belief. My heart goes out to all those affected and all the brave firefighters and first responders.

Los Angeles: A Photographic Journey by Joakim Lloyd Raboff

Los Angeles is a city like no other – vast, vibrant, and endlessly contradictory. For Joakim Lloyd Raboff, born and raised in L.A., this city is a living, breathing being that never stops inspiring. Joakim Lloyd Raboff has captured the geographical, architectural and social contrasts that define Los Angeles’s eclectic appeal. Through his lens, Raboff invites you to see the city’s many layers: its glittering promise, its gritty reality, and the magnetic energy that continues to draw dreamers, creators, and fortune seekers from around the globe. Every image tells a story, every contrast sparks curiosity – this is L.A., up close and personal.

Christmas is over

Christmas Memories
I walked by this dried Christmas tree on my way home from Elle’s apartment last night. It looked so abandoned and sad, somehow. I wondered if the tree had fulfilled its purpose while its pines were still green, glimmering with hanging ornaments, and surrounded by a heap of gifts topsy-turvily placed around its base. Looking at it now, I can’t help but wonder: did the tree get to witness laughter, joy, singing, and excitement as Christmas cards were read aloud, colorful wrapping paper torn open, and presents revealed? Was the old tree left against the building’s entrance temporarily, or simply abandoned by someone who couldn’t be bothered to dispose of it properly?

I can’t even remember when we last had a Christmas tree. It might have been in Vejbystrand or possibly as far back as when Elle was still living at home, half a decade ago.I do recall several idyllic Christmases in Trollhättan at my maternal grandparents’ house. I also know (now) that there was no shortage of intrigue behind the scenes on Örtagårdsvägen 17. Grandmother Agnes did her very best to make the gathering of the various aunts and their families a joyous occasion. She ensured that us kids didn’t have to witness too much of the jealousy-fueled feuds that plagued our family over the years.

As far as Christmas in L.A. goes, well, I don’t really remember them in much detail. We usually had a Christmas tree, and I have a faint memory of decorating them, but not much else. One year, I brought a tree home from the Mayfair Market on Santa Monica Boulevard. I had been working with the guy selling Christmas trees right outside the supermarket, carrying those he had nailed onto wooden stands to customers’ cars. I don’t remember what I made – maybe a dollar an hour – so the Christmas tree was probably a bonus.
Nick Raboff, Kim Raboff, and Tyko Raboff

Remembering Tyko

Today, 21 years ago, little brother Tyko decided he’d had enough pain and sorrow. It’s been twenty-one years since that devastating phone call from a gendarm in Paris. For far too many years afterward, I felt anxious whenever the phone rang.

Tyko’s departure shattered my life and left a hole in my soul that no amount of joy or time has ever been able to fully fill.

Losing someone so young, someone so close creates a kind of pain that never leaves you. I don’t just miss him; I miss everything he didn’t get to become or see me achieve. I grieve for the moments we’ll never share and the life he never got to live.
Sometimes, I still wrestle with “survivor’s guilt”. It’s a heavy shadow that whispers questions that have no answers. I try to tell myself there’s no fairness to life, that it doesn’t work like that.

Losing Tyko so suddenly on January 3, 2003 will never allow for any real closure – only a silence that grows louder as the years pass by.

It feels like Tyko’s story was stolen, and I’m left carrying fragments of a life that should have been. And yet, as painful as it is, I carry these shards of a life never fully lived because I have to, because remembering is the only way I know how to honor his smile, his laughter, and above all, his love.

If you really know me, you’ll also know that I am not a believer in any religion or quasi faith or floating deity. I try to respect that others find solace, joy and meaning in their faith. It’s just not for me. That said, as I get older, I have to admit that deep down in the dark depths of my consciousness, I keep a small fire burning for the unlikely event that when I do die, I will get to see Tyko again, hear his laughter and feel how the warmth of his smile once again touches my heart. Rest in Peace, Tyko.

oysters

New Year’s Oysters

Tuesday. Malmö. The last day of the year.

Two thousand and twenty-four is about to slip through the cracks. Who dares to predict whether two thousand and twenty-five will be better, worse, or somewhere in between? Not me.

Despite the three-month “pause” this fall, the year still offered a delightful mix of assignments, new book projects, and trips to six different countries—eight if you include Sweden and Denmark.

Highlights of the year:
Hot yoga and surfing in Thailand, skiing in Italy, a month-long road trip to Portugal, wine tasting in Georgia, the bustling ITB in Germany, hiking in the autumn beauty of Abisko National Park, and sailing in Greece. During the year, our little publishing house released five books: four photo books and one about aging in men.

The least impressive highlight of 2024 was the trip to Nerja in Spain, which I don’t quite understand why so many people rave about. The nature is as stunningly beautiful as the town is unbelievably ugly.

25 reflections as the year comes to a close:

  1. These days, when I step onto an escalator, I’m surprisingly focused on the seams between the steps.
  2. I can’t sit on hard chairs for too long. Maybe it’s time to buy an inflatable cushion to carry around.
  3. I’d rather drink an expensive tequila than a cheap bourbon.
  4. I think my short-term memory has started to falter, but I can’t remember for sure.
  5. One of the few perks of a failing memory is being able to enjoy old movies I’ve already seen a couple of times.
  6. Strangely enough, the thought of turning 62 next year feels easier than turning 60 did last year.
  7. Of all the creative careers I’ve had, writing is by far the hardest, but also the most stimulating.
  8. I’ve discovered that Gothenburg is much more interesting today than it was when I left the city 27 years ago…
  9. It was lovely to celebrate Christmas again with my mother-in-law (83) and father-in-law (87). It also felt a bit like an internship for the future.
  10. It doesn’t happen as often these days, but I’m always a little happy not to be the oldest in the room. It’s nice to lower the average age sometimes…
  11. I have less and less patience for people who are self-satisfied, begrudging and those who’ve gone unchallenged for so long they believe they’re oracles.
  12. I’ve started looking forward to retiring in 2.5 years.
  13. My two mottos, “to travel is to live, to live is to travel” and “never do nothing,” still hold true.
  14. As our home’s chef, cooking is most fun when I know our daughter will be joining us for dinner.
  15. At last, I’m beginning to care less and less about what people think of me.
  16. After three months without coffee, I’m also completely free of prostate issues. I still have to get up in the middle of the night to pee 40 milliliters, though.
  17. It’s nice not to be as recognizable at the pharmacy as I was this fall – but also worrying that the staff at the liquor store greet me so warmly and familiarly.
  18. I always travel with indoor slippers in my luggage now.
  19. The best pizzas I’ve ever eaten are made by a friend from New York who lives a stone’s throw from us in Malmö. Much better than those I’ve had in Naples and New York.
  20. I’m inspired by friends who travel a lot and never feel envious or resentful.
  21. The trip that offered the most soul-soothing moments and culinary experiences was to Abisko Mountain Lodge in Swedish Lapland.
  22. Greece is our new Portugal.
  23. I need to cherish good friends and kind neighbors more.
  24. I hope to enjoy more oysters in 2025.
  25. True love sometimes creaks but it never rusts.

HAPPY END & HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!

Poke Bowl Tuna Wasabi Mayo

Forecast: Leaner Cuisine

Back in Malmö, where the weather mirrors Göteborg’s dreary gray, as if conspiring to keep the sun and smiles permanently at bay. This corner of Europe seems cursed with an inordinate share of clouds, rain, and fog – a dull, meteorological monotony that feels less like nature’s whim and more of a psychological assault.

I’ve yet to dive into the climatological explanation, which I am certain there is, so when I say I don’t understand, I mean less the science and more the injustice of the many weeks of sunless days. Acceptance, even now, remains elusive. Yet, I suppose there should be room for gratitude – this winter has been mild so far and the storms here by the sea have been manageably few. That is apparently going to change next week when colder weather arrives here in southern Scandinavia.

I’ve never been much for forecasts. The element of surprise – the raw immediacy of experiencing life, including weather, unmediated by prophecies – seems far more appealing to me than hedging on predictions and probabilities.

After days of indulgence – the typically rich Swedish Christmas foods and the decadent excess from two hotel breakfast buffets – it’s a relief to return to something leaner, something simpler. Yesterday, I put together the bowl you see above: black rice, cauliflower, soybeans, sweet corn, salsa, guacamole, raw tuna with wasabi mayo, and garlic-fried cashews – a balance of flavors, textures and colors – and a quiet act of restoration.

Now, I find myself contemplating the year ahead, shaping an approach to health and revival. The autumn was a trial – the discomfort from a herniated disc, relentless pain from sciatica, and the cascade of medications (and tequila) required to endure the elongated healing process. Recovery was if nothing else, humbling, but it also taught me this: my body is owed an extensive detox, a return to equilibrium. A fresh start is no longer just an aspiration – it’s a necessity. So if I paradoxically do make a prediction for 2025, it’s going to be a healthier and more productive year.

Joni Mitchell Never Lies

Joni Mitchell Never Lies

So this morning, after I published my Christmas Blues post, I listened to the latest episode of my favorite news podcast The Daily hosted by New York Times journalist Michael Barbaro. This Christmas Day show was dedicated to my all-time favorite musician and lyricist, Joni Mitchell – whom I’ve been listening to while creating my own verbal or visual art since the late 1970s.

abundance of excesses

The Christmas Paradox

Now that Christmas is almost over—Sweden celebrates Christmas Eve more than Christmas Day—I find myself once again reflecting on a paradox that grows harder to ignore each year. While Christmas is marketed as a season of joy and generosity, its rampant commercialization often breeds stress, debt, and a hollow sense of obligation, leaving me feeling soulless and empty especially as there is an increasing amount of suffering in the world.

The focus of Christmas has shifted from sharing intangible treasures like love, kindness, and time to a relentless emphasis on what we can buy and give away. Gifts become tools in a personal PR campaign, aimed at earning love, forgiveness, or, perhaps, mitigating resentment.

Shiny, wrapped presents may glitter under the tree, but they cannot fill the deeper voids—the absence of genuine respect, the weight of unhealed wrongs, or the pain we’ve caused others.

This irony is especially stark when set against the story of Christ’s birth. His humble beginnings in a manger, surrounded by simplicity and reverence, stand in sharp contrast to a holiday season now dominated by excess and materialism in which I am an increasingly reluctant participant.

Oh, and I generated the above image using AI.

SJ's Express Train Malmö to Göteborg

First Class to Göteborg

A low but sharp winter sun shines over the Skåne’s plains rushing past as I sit in first class on SJ’s express train to Gothenburg, where we’ll be celebrating Christmas once again this year.
I’m nibbling on gingerbread cookies and sipping Kung Markatta’s Breakfast Tea as we’ve just left Helsingborg, where my travel companion was supposed to join me. Two seats for the price of one.

Regardless of the mode of transport, I rarely travel first class – but it turned out that a first-class ticket with SJ was cheaper than other options for this route so close to Christmas Eve.
The first-class ticket, which cost a reasonable 545 SEK, included access to SJ’s “Lounge,” where a small but delightful Christmas buffet was laid out.

In the lounge, I met a shivering family from Singapore who seemed torn about whether they should dare to try the pickled herring, rice pudding, or the slightly sweaty sliced ham. The brave daughter led the way and tried everything.
All my Christmas gifts for the family are safely packed in my backpack, and I don’t have to worry about the presents getting wrinkled. They were, after all, already wrinkled before I packed them.
I’ve managed to crack the “code” for quite a few things in life; some came naturally, while others I had to work hard for. Gift wrapping, however, is definitely not one of the things I’ve cracked the code for.
The results of my efforts to wrap beautiful Christmas presents are the diametrical opposite of origami.

But it’s what’s inside that counts, right? After all, it takes time to ponder, narrow down, and shop for gifts. Grandma Agnes, however, would not have been entirely pleased with me. She always saved the wrapping paper, and I can still hear her say, when all the Christmas gifts had been unwrapped by the families Andersson, Raboff, Starrsjö, and Felten: “It’s such a shame to throw away so much beautiful paper.”

In the basement on Örtagårdsvägen in Trollhättan, there was a cupboard filled with old wrapping paper.

I suspect Grandpa Eskil used some of her saved wrapping paper when the old boiler went out.
If we didn’t notice that the house was getting cold quickly enough, Grandpa’s hunting companion, the beagle Ingo (who by the end smelled so bad he had to sleep in the boiler room), would bark promptly to let everyone know he was freezing.

The train just passed Vejbystrand, and, as usual, it felt a bit melancholic. But Gothenburg will be all the more pleasant with just the right dose of happy reunions, indulgences, and hopefully some rest at Draken.

Wishing everyone a MERRY CHRISTMAS (now from somewhere just north of Halmstad).

I love Asia

Thoughts on Asia

There’s something about the chaos and cacophony of Asia that I can’t help but love. The relentless swirl of sights, sounds, and smells colliding have had a hypnotizing effect on me since my first visit in the fall of 1988. It’s not just the intensity of it – it’s the vibrancy, the immediacy, the overwhelming now of it all. And yet, I have also always had a divided relationship with Asia. Too much of it, for too long, can leave me frayed at the edges, yearning for cold, calm, silence. But after being immersed in the serene calm of Sweden for way too long, the pendulum has swung. Now I desperately need Asia.

I crave the sensory overload of bustling streets, the kind where you have to weave through a sea of motorized humanity, where every corner is alive with the sizzling of street food, the chatter and laughs of food vendors, the cries from sidewalk hawkers and street hustlers. I also miss the layered aromas of Asian cuisine – the tangy zest of lime, the punch of chilies, the earthy sweetness of soy and garlic blending into something almost transcendent. I long for the smiling faces of strangers, those fleeting moments of warmth exchanged in crowded markets or tiny street cafés.

And the weather – oh, the weather. The kind that wraps you in a blanket of warmth, an enveloping heat that makes you feel alive and allows you to shed layers upon layers of clothing of cautiousness of convention.

I yearn for the plentifulness, for the kind of life where fruit spills out of baskets, where spices fill the air, where every glance reveals something new for me to explore, something vibrant to experience. An abundance of abundance, if that makes any sense

There’s a part of me that thrives on the intensity, on the chaos that makes you feel so small yet so connected to something unmeasurable, forceful, unstoppable.

Sweden’s calm is restorative, yes, but now I’m ready to dive headfirst into the storm of life again. Asia is calling me – its colors, its noise, its flavors, its sweat. I’m ready to embrace the pulse of a my world that refuses to stay still.

Dandelion Distraction

Dandelion Distraction

In late spring, southeastern Sweden’s Österlen region is famous for its rolling fields of golden-yellow canola flowers. These fields are nothing short of mesmerizing, their rhythmic sway in the breeze creating a hypnotic, almost otherworldly allure. A few years ago, while photographing in Österlen, I stumbled upon this perfectly spherical dried dandelion, its seeds still attached to their delicate parachutes, poised to launch into the wind.

I had intended to focus solely on the vibrantly blooming canola flowers, but as usual, my wandering mind had other plans. I’ll admit, I’m easily distracted – a trait that’s both a blessing and a curse. It’s probably a form of ADD; I prefer to think of it as an ongoing battle between focus and fascination. When I’m out in nature, especially in a place as striking as Österlen, my senses go into overdrive. Every hill, every shadow, every shift in light demands my attention. The world becomes a chaotic symphony, and I’m the conductor struggling to stay on tempo.

But maybe that’s the magic of being an artist – allowing these moments of distraction to transform into something meaningful.

As I knelt to frame the dandelion, the chaos receded. Its intricate design absorbed me completely, and suddenly, the canola field became the backdrop rather than the subject.

Perhaps the distractions are the story. They pull me off my conscious path, guiding me toward new discoveries. Maybe they’re a covert means of giving me distance from what I’m “supposed” to focus on, so when I return, I see it with fresh eyes – and make it better.

Las Vegas

Longing for Vegas

I just came across this photo from Las Vegas deep within my vast USA archive. I’m not sure during which trip I captured these old neon signs but it might have been in 2018. In any case, it reminded me of the city’s unapologetic indulgence. A place that dares you to let go, to throw reason to the wind, and revel in the sheer absurdity of life as we know it.

You don’t get to tread lightly in Vegas. Whether they like it or not, we are forced to dive headfirst into its neon abyss, to gorge on the spectacle until all senses beg for mercy. It’s a gluttonous place where losing oneself isn’t just inevitable – it’s expected and part of the package.

But here’s the thing: as much as I know better, as much as I understand the ecological and personal cost of such excess, there’s something about Las Vegas and all that it stands for that called out to me as soon as I saw those signs.

I suppose it’s the American in me, the part that was fed Americana from day one. It’s not about what’s good for me – it’s about what feels good, if only for a fleeting moment.

Las Vegas is the perfect place to indulge in these guilty pleasures. To step into a world where everything is larger than life, where reality bends to the will of entertainment, and where the mundane is banished to the fringes

It’s not about balance. It’s about extremes. And in a world where we’re constantly reminded of everything that’s wrong – with us, with society, with the planet – there’s a kind of defiant joy in saying, “To hell with it all,” and just dive in.

The old hotel and casino signs brought all of this rushing back to me. It reminded me of what it feels like to give in, to let go, to embrace the contradictions. I’m all about that right now. After all, it is the season to be jolly!

Abstract Photography Enigmative Revival

Painting vs Books and Exhibition Fatigue

I haven’t been painting in a while. Might even be a year since I last picked up a brush to use it to create something new. I have all the time and material needed to paint new paintings, yet my book projects keep pulling me away from the easel that stands not more than two meters from my workstation’s seductively bright screen. Not having a venue where I can show my work might be part of why I don’t prioritize painting right now.

The ironic thing with that is that after having had a show at least once a year for about a decade, I now have some kind of exhibit fatigue. Putting together even a small exhibition is a lot of work. So for the foreseeable future, I will continue to write and produce new books and hopefully spend more time developing my “Enigmative” series of abstract photography. Like the one above, titled, “Enigmative 022”.


Mary Hill Estate in Glumslov

We spent most of Thursday and some of Friday at Mary Hill Estate. I couldn’t have chosen a better time for a first comeback after nearly 3 months of dealing with a herniated disc and sciatica. The hotel and resort corporation Ess Group has done something truly remarkable with Örenäs Castle. The transformation is both tasteful and stunning. If you’ve ever stayed at any of their other properties, this was our fourth or fifth hotel and resort, you’ll soon recognize Ess Group’s concept throughout Mary Hill Estate’s interior design, color schemes, and artsy photographs in most public spaces, corridors, and rooms.


Cofee Break

Stumbled across this coffee cup just now. I captured it at a hotel in Cyprus sometime in May 2023. I’ve been on a coffee break for about two months now. Instead of coffee, I’m drinking hot water mixed with half a teaspoon of ground organic ginger. Once a day I’ll splurge and add a teaspoon of maple syrup. It’s really delicious. Maybe I should try mixing in some rum…

The only time I miss coffee is when I smell freshly ground beans. That said, I think the smell of ground coffee beans is somewhat deceiving insofar as it far outdoes the taste. That’s the way our noses are constructed, I suppose. They need to give us such an invitingly strong sensory experience that we are prepared to open our mouths, wiggle our tongues, and even use our teeth (if required) to enjoy something that smells so intriguing.

Not sure when I’ll start drinking coffee again, but I know I will.

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Walk of Water-Water Towers New York City

WALK OF WATER: WATER TOWERS CONTEST

I just submitted a few photos to a UNESCO-sponsored contest themed on water and water storage. I don’t usually participate in photography contests and though I have won a few, when I do partake, it always gives me pause. Why should I compete with my art? After all, art is one of the most subjective experiences we have as humans. What warms me might leave someone else cold. What’s “good” or “bad” depends on taste, context, knowledge, and even mood. How, then, can anyone judge, let alone decide, what good art is? Sure, you can assess technical skill, but that’s only a fraction of what makes art resonate or not resonate. The connection, the emotion and the ideas art sparks are things that can’t be measured or compared.

When we treat art as a competition, I think we reduce it. It stops being about expression and instead becomes about metrics: who sold the most? Who got the award? Who has the most followers? Numbers are fleeting, disconnected from the deeper purpose of art, which I think is to explore, provoke, and connect. And then there’s the risk of suppression. Competition has a way of discouraging experimentation, especially for young or unconventional artists. If the goal is to win, why take risks? Why push boundaries or create something raw and unpolished if it might not be “good enough” to win? Art flourishes in freedom, not fear.

The bottom line is that competing with art is largely meaningless. It distracts from the real essence of what art is and why it matters. Art isn’t about being better than someone else; it’s about saying something truthfully, and hopefully inspiring others to feel what you felt while making it. If competition plays a role at all, it’s indirect – a way to shine a light on what’s possible, to nudge younger artists toward their potential. But the moment we turn art into a numbers game, we lose sight of what makes it powerful in the first place. And that, at least to me, defeats the purpose.

Abandoned Places

Book of Abandonment

I realized the other day that I needed to add another project to my ever-growing list of book ideas – a book about abandoned places. I’ve been fascinated by these forsaken sites for a long time. Like many artists, I’ve been drawn to the haunting beauty of spaces that, for mostly unknowable reasons, have been deserted and left to decay.

I’m intrigued by the interplay of time and neglect that transforms these places, once alive with human activity, into poignant, gritty reminders of life’s impermanence. When the idea struck, I began to envision what such a book might look like – the themes it might explore, what stories it might tell, and, of course, what images I would want to include. Turns out that my archive was brimming with photographs of abandoned places captured during travels to the US, Asia, Africa, and Europe. Take, for instance, the image above from the outskirts of Lisbon, Portugal – a desolate structure slowly succumbing to the elements.

But why am I so entranced by these places?

Is it simply the adrenaline rush that comes with venturing into places others avoid – often at the edge of legality and potentially unsafe? There’s certainly a thrill to it: the creak of a collapsing floorboard, the way shadows play tricks in the corners of my vision, the sharp awareness of vulnerability. That rush is undeniable, but I suspect my fascination goes deeper. Perhaps it’s the soulfulness of these places that pulls me in. Abandoned spaces seem to possess an unguarded honesty, stripped of the polish and pretense of their former purpose. Yet, there is quite possibly another layer to my fascination, one I hesitate to fully confront. Could my interest in these forgotten places be tied to my own childhood experiences?

Growing up, I knew too well of abandonment and the scars it left me to deal with as an adult. The feeling of being overlooked, left behind, or not fully belonging is something I’ve carried with me since early childhood. When I step into an abandoned building, I can’t help but see a reflection of that same feeling: a place left behind, its purpose deemed obsolete, yet still standing. In some ways, photographing these spaces feels like an act of acknowledgment – of witnessing something that might otherwise go unseen. It’s as if, through my lens, I’m saying, I see you. You’re still here. You still matter. Perhaps in giving attention to these forgotten places, I’m also giving a part of myself the same recognition.

So, it appears that this book will be more than just a collection of images – it will also be a journey into the emotional terrain of abandonment.

Mid Century Modern House in Los Angeles

Two New Books: Malmö & L.A.

Despite being physically restrained, I am thankfully able to spend a few hours each day being creative – in one way or another. Creativity has become a lifeline, offering me a sense of purpose and connection to the world around me, even when my physical freedom is temporarily limited.

Right now, I’m focused on two new photography books that have been consuming most of the pain-free energy I have. The first is themed around Malmö, the city where I’ve lived off and on for 25 years. It’s in its final stages, with the layouts and design nearly completed, and I’m optimistic it will be ready for print sometime before Christmas. This project has been a wonderful way to highlight the unique character of Malmö through my lens.

The second book is about Los Angeles, a city that continues to hold a special place in my heart. It explores a wide range of neighborhoods and iconic spots that have inspired or resonated with me emotionally over the years, including Downtown Los Angeles (DTLA), Silverlake, Hollywood, West Hollywood (WeHo), Santa Monica, and Venice. I’m almost finished with the image selection process, which, while rewarding, can often feel like a meticulous and repetitive task.

Whenever I need a break from curating images, I’ll shift my attention to writing and editing the book’s introduction or come up with ideas for the cover art. Figuring out how to visually represent an entire book about a city filled with so many contradictions, so much energy, and layers of history is no easy task.

A few years ago, I photographed a Mid-Century Modern house in the Hollywood Hills. Its clean lines and stunning views epitomize the architectural beauty of the era. At the moment, I’m awaiting publishing permission from the property’s owners to include the image in the book.

The above image was computer-generated using a series of prompts. Even so, it captures a vibe remarkably similar to the atmosphere of the Mid-Century Modern house I mentioned earlier. To me, the illustration with its sweeping views and iconic design evokes the uniqueness that is the Hollywood Hills.

Herniated disc L5-S1

Herniated L5-S1

The MRI scan I had last week arrived today. Urban, a friend of a friend and a professor in Orthopedics was spot on when he diagnosed me before the scan: I have a herniated disc at L5-S1. L5 is the fifth lumbar vertebra, and S1 is the first sacral vertebra. I don’t know much about this stuff, but together, they form the L5-S1 spinal segment.

This has clearly caused Sciatica, which has been characterized by severe pain and extreme numbness that often radiates down through my leg. Apparently, L5-S1 is one of the most common areas for a herniated disc because of the significant stress and weight-bearing load we often put on the lower back.

The good news is that about 90% of patients with a herniated disc at L5-S1 self-heal without the need for surgery. The not-so-good news is that I might have to wait another month for my cranky and creaky L5-S1 to heal.

So, the likelihood that I’ll be going surfing, skiing, or running anytime soon is looking pretty slim.

Shit happens.


Love The California Brown Pelican

There’s something intriguing about the California Brown Pelican – a majestic bird that embodies resilience, grace, and a touch of prehistoric mystery. This is why I’ve not only photographed this magnificent creature at several locations in Southern California (though I am definitely not a birdie) but also immortalized it in ink as a tattoo.

Watching a brown pelican in flight is like witnessing art in motion. I’ve been out surfing at dawn in Santa Monica and seen them glide effortlessly with their massive wingspans just above the ocean’s surface, their aerodynamic bodies lit by California’s morning light.

It’s a dance of precision and power as they dive headfirst into the waves, emerging triumphantly with their catch.

When I captured the image above, it wasn’t just about honing in on the perfect composition – it was about freezing a moment that symbolizes freedom and adaptability.

Tosco Tequila Reposado

Tosco Tequila Reposado

If you ask me, right now, a good quality tequila beats any kind of bourbon I’ve tried. Given that my bourbon experience is limited – especially here in Sweden where the government’s monopoly and import taxes shrink the range of available brands to try.

The conundrum with tequila is that most people, myself included up until recently, have rarely had anything but the horrible stuff that smells like recycled jet fuel and tastes what you’d imagine drinking rat poison would be like. I’m talking about cheap brands like Cuervo or Sierra, both of which I used to mix drinks with back in the 1980s when I was freelancing as a bartender.

Come to think of it, have I ever been anything other than a freelancer?

A few months ago, I stumbled upon Tosco Tequila Reposado at our local liquor store. I don’t remember why I picked it up, but it might have been because we were planning a Mexican dinner and I just refused to buy the bottom-shelf stuff again.

In 2022, just before heading to LAX for my return flight to Europe, my brother Nick took me to one of those wholesale liquor stores with every imaginable kind of alcoholic beverage. They had about 50 different tequilas, and the one I brought back to Sweden was so incredibly smooth and delicious that it completely redefined my idea of how tequila should smell and taste. Unfortunately, I don’t remember the brand, but I’m sure it’s not available here.

Anyway, Tosco Tequila Reposado has turned out to be pretty close to what I bought in Los Angeles. It’s produced in the Mexican state of Jalisco where the town of Tequila is located and according to the description, it has a fruity yet spicy flavor with notes of oak, yellow pears, almonds, straw, honey, white pepper, herbs, citrus, and vanilla. I can’t speak to all of those wonderfully sounding scents and flavors, but I can certainly pick out the aroma and taste of vanilla.

As far back as I can remember, I’ve always been a sucker for almost anything that smells or tastes like vanilla.

A study I read somewhere recently, proclaimed that tequila is one of the least processed spirits. It’s not exactly “pure,” but supposedly, it goes through fewer processing steps and flavoring treatments during its transformation from agave plant to bottled beverage – at least when compared with bourbon, gin, and rum. In any case, Tosco is currently my preferred aperitif – and avec.

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