Ladder to Nowhere

Ascending vs Descending

Today’s philosophical question is: should one be ascending or descending at this stage in life? When I look around, I see plenty of peers still trying to climb up their career ladder, still yearning for more money, fancier vehicles, and adding additional knots of prestige to their pistol belt. Possibly because they don’t know what else to do with their self-competitiveness. I feel increasingly relaxed about all of that stuff and content with whatever happens – yet not entirely rudderless. My gut feeling is that the view is pretty good somewhere in the middle of that old rusty ladder.

Summer is almost over and autumn is near

Summer is almost over and autumn is near

Summer is almost over and autumn is near. As a kid, that’s the kind of “glass is half empty” perspective I had once July came to an end and just a few weeks remained of summer vacation. For the most part, I enjoyed my earliest summers in L.A. Barefoot, pool-hopping, munching on a slice of slippery pizza, making some fast cash after washing a neighbor’s car or mowing a lawn for a couple of bucks.

It was freedom with a capital F and there were almost no boundaries of where to go, what to do and who to hang out with. And as long as I wasn’t home too early, my mother would be fast asleep by the time I snuck into to my bedroom.

Today, I see the end of summer as somewhat of a relief. Don’t get me wrong, I fully embrace the few summer months we get up here in northern Europe. But my ongoing projects are more or less in a lull once the year’s most sociable season kicks in. Not that I don’t work on them, just not nearly as much as when the weather is less hospitable and our social calendar is less full.

I love this image (captured in Vejbystrand) as it reminds me so much of the forthcoming fall.

Inside the crane operator cabin

Vintage Crane & Moral Qualm

I captured this inside the operator’s cabin of a vintage crane in the old Lenin Shipyard of Gdansk, Poland. The view was marvelous but being in the cabin also reminded me of an ancient moral qualm I feel a need to share here.

Once I’d reached the highest level of the enormous crane, I thought of what it must have been like back in the day when the sprawling shipyard was at its most active. I pondered if crane operators were figuratively and literally at the very top of the workforce food chain or hierarchy. Maybe they were.

On the way down the crane’s rusty, rickety stairwell, I remembered something from my younger years, somewhat related to what I had just experienced.

Just a couple of years after moving to Sweden in the late 1970s, I got a weekend job working at Beckmans, a small-ish hot dog and newspaper stand in a posh suburb of Göteborg. It was located adjacent to the government’s local television and radio station. So this is an era way before commercially funded broadcasts were allowed on the airways in Sweden. While not nearly as restrictive and oppressive as in Poland, there was no shortage of pretty hardcore socialism in Sweden back in those days.

The hot dog kiosk was an immensely popular pitstop, especially for folks on their way home from a night out. I mostly worked evenings and nights there, flipping burgers, grilling hot dogs, pouring milkshakes, and frying fries. Some of you might remember that I had a big ball of curly hair then and it was no easy task washing the smell of deep-fried food from it once I got home after an eight or ten-hour shift.

If memory serves me correctly, the owner, a dude with almost blinding white hair named Kent Beckman, had once been a crane operator at Götaverken-Arendal, one of the city’s biggest shipyards.

According to a rumor spread among us teens working at the kiosk back then, Kent had married a woman who came from “high society” in Göteborg, By tying the knot with her, he’d married into considerable wealth and climbed several rungs up the city’s social ladder. Which was something he made very little effort to conceal yet had no qualms at all about paying us a meager SEK 20 ($2) an hour – under the table no less – and keeping his hot dog stand’s minions (mostly teenagers) on a very short and tight leash. Working there was usually fun, but it could also be swelteringly hot and ridiculously intense when a steady stream, often hundreds of hungry, impatient customers, ordered food throughout an entire shift.

I am certainly not proud of the last part of this post. Still, since the statute of limitation has long passed, I will now publicly admit that it was just a few hours into my very first shift when several of my coworkers at Beckman’s confided in me that the entire workforce of burger flipping and hot dog grilling teens made sure they were reasonably compensated for Kent’s notoriously unabashed cheapness.

The parallel might be a bit stretched, but around the same time as I was working weekends at Beckman’s kiosk, the shipyard workers in Gdansk, Poland began their general strike. It was initiated on August 14, 1980, because the workers were exhausted from living under the weight of rigorously and brutally enforced restrictions on their civil rights and civil liberties. I am obviously not arguing that what we did was by any means righteous or justified. But, in our own way, we also felt a level of oppression and exploitation, financially speaking.

Dave, I feel much better now.

#göteborg #gdansk #hotdogstand #moralqualm #beckmans #gotaverkenarendal #kubrik #1980

Lech Walesa's Gdansk

Lech Wałęsa’s Gdansk

A quick post from Lech Wałęsa’s Gdansk.

I’m sure that my personal list of places I want to experience live is longer than most folks. I can’t back that statement up with any scientific stats, but it might be true for most visual artists. Inspiration comes from all kinds of sources, and for me, travel is certainly my preferred fountainhead.

I’ve wanted to visit Gdansk ever since hearing about Lech Wałęsa, famous for his political activism and the Solidarity movement he founded in the Polish city’s sprawling shipyard. I vividly remember being almost as intrigued by the industrial scenery shown on television and in newspapers as I was by his formidable success at ushering in a new era in Poland and eventually, the entire Eastern Bloc.

Yesterday was my 59th birthday. A year shy of an arguably more significant milestone. Since SAS screwed up our plans to celebrate my birthday with a few days in Tromsø, true to our ability to always figure out a good “Plan B”, Charlotte and I flew to Gdansk instead. It’s my second trip to Poland (I was in Krakow last year) and I am really enjoying each new visit to this country. Gdansk seems to be a thriving place with a young, energetic population and a ton of inspiring visual experiences.

Tyko Raboff

TYKO BLAKE ESKIL RABOFF
Today would have been my brother Tyko’s 55th birthday. The echo of emptiness from lost loved ones eventually dwindles, becoming faint and distant with time. But do they ever really leave us?

Yes, notwithstanding the level of preparedness, the initial flood of pain inevitably fills our hearts and almost drowns us. But in due course, the ebb arrives and the sadness recedes into a gentle sea of seemingly perpetual, yet overcomable sorrow. Hesitantly at first, we slowly begin to nourish the memories of lost ones, somehow encouraging their souls to linger secretly in the depths of our hearts, and, conciseness.

Why would we allow remarkable friendships to ever be forgotten?

While the healing process often begins long before the inevitable final act has been revealed, we are left with a deep emotional laceration – collateral damage from life itself – one that we must accept and endure as it is a contribution to the human experience.

At some point in life, the cumulative departure of family, friends, and contemporaries, it begins to dawn upon us; the ephemerality of our existence, the mysterious realm of mortality, and, if we are humbled by our fate and destiny, perhaps even genuine gratitude for the allowance of time we were granted life in a physical form. Of being a being.

Sorrow and emptiness must certainly give way to cherished memories of those who have moved on but quietly continue to fill our lives with inspiration and, ultimately, love. Eternal love.

heatwave

Heatwave in Sweden

We’re enjoying a rare heatwave in Sweden. It’s not nearly as humid as I’m relatively accustomed to in southern Europe or in South East Asia. It’s a dryer heat here that reminds me more of places like Death Valley, Joshua Tree, and New Mexico. I’m certainly not complaining and I’d gladly give up the terrible winters here in Malmö for this kind of weather all year round. That said, I was hoping for a trip to the far north of Norway. But, due to the SAS strike, that isn’t going to happen. Instead, we’ll look to the east to celebrate my birthday…

The above image is of course part of my ongoing Resurfaced art series.

Flower Power

FLOWER POWER

I captured this gorgeous flower recently and as gentle and fragile as it seemed when I looked at it, somehow, it also broadcasted so much strength, confidence, and fertility. The flower must have looked completely irresistible to the nearby hovering bumblebees. So powerful – real flower power!

Rolls Royce Automobile

Autofascination

I can’t explain it, but for some reason, like most boys and men, I have a fascination with just about anything that has a motor and moves. Is it the soothing soundscape a car evokes while idling or the loudness from a revving motorcycle? Or, is it the high-pitched frequencies of a jet engine during landing and takeoff that create the almost hypnotic allure?

Maybe, just maybe, it’s genetic. Perhaps men are programmed to find loud noises intriguing somehow. That we get some kind of hormonal reward from confronting (and mastering) the mechanical beast.

Rusty Summer Dreams

Rusty Summer Dreams

Due to the traveling lifestyle I’ve led for the better par of two and a half decades, summer vacation is a weird concept. And to be totally honest, I don’t think I’ve  had a fixed 4 or 5 week summer vacation since high school or college.

Tourism has definitely returned to  Stockholm and the main shopping streets are relatively full of both Swedish tourists and visitors from across the globe. Not nearly as much as pre-pandemic and especially when it comes to Asian vacationers, which are a rare site here.

Plenty of Americans in the Swedish capital, though. But not the archetypical loud, entitled kind. Overall, I’d venture to say that the vibe here is softer, maybe even humble. As if folks are – finally – aware of the world’s fragility.

Söder in Stockholm

Stockholm

Once again in Stockholm to work on the Resurfaced project, meet friends and reunite with my cousins. For once, I’m not staying at a hotel in the capital as one of my oldest friends here is traveling abroad and very generously provided her apartment in the cozy Söder neighborhood.

The ride up from Malmö was relatively smooth. I sat with my back towards the direction of the train – which was fine – and enjoyed viewing all the lush summer landscapes swishing by.

Pink-Pool-Ripped-Nylons

Pink Pool Ripped Nylons

This piece, “Pink Pool Ripped Nylons”, originated from a photograph I took of a swimming pool in Greece a while back. Naming or titling my work has never really been much of a challenge. I’ll usually allow the art itself provide me with at least a part of the title and then add something that I associate it with. In the case with the above artwork, it was a scene at the start of the excellent Sophia Coppola film “Lost in Translation” with Bill Murray and Scarlett Johansson. I watched it again recently and my deconstructed pool reminded me of the pattern in Japanese actress’ stockings (“Lip my stockings! Lip my stockings!”).

Abandoned Amalfi Sorrento

Abandoned in Sorrento

Here’s an abandoned house somewhere on the outskirts of Sorrento along the Amalfi Coast in Italy. I’ve collected some of my images from that visit over at www.raboffphotography.com/amalfi-coast

Svenska Bildkonstnären

Swedish Artists’ Association Magazine
My art is prominently featured on the cover and in an article in the Swedish Artists’ Association’s latest print magazine. I had totally forgotten about the article, so it was as a very pleasant surprise when I opened the mailbox yesterday.
#humbled #artwork #swedishart #americanartist #santamonicaimages #visualartist #svenskakonstnärer #svenskakonstnärsförbundet
Resurfaced: Faded Elated

Resurfaced: Unfaded & Elated

As a younger artist, whenever I honestly and seriously delved into a creative project, almost any kind of exhibition project, and then discovered how much I enjoyed working on it no matter how long it took to complete, I would typically find it hard to understand how anyone could possibly think otherwise. Some might call this obsessive, borderline narcissistic behavior, and maybe it is. But art is demanding and if you aren’t fully immersed and don’t believe what you’re working on is the most important thing in your life, I wonder if what you produce is actually worth working on in the first place.

Honest art, as opposed to decorative art, is demanding, ruthless, and usually misunderstood.

While the passion wasn’t exactly overpowering, I remember often feeling an intoxicating surge of happiness that made me want to share the discovery and the ensuing enthusiasm with anybody willing to listen to me.

In retrospect, I realize that it might as well have been my enthusiasm rather than the creative output that generated the positive feedback. I’ve spoken at some length with fellow artists about this phenomenon which is in some distant way related to subliminally creating hysteria. Enthusiasm is undeniably smiting and I am just as guilty as anyone else for getting excited about the excitement rather than the work it has exuded.

My ongoing “Resurfaced” series is a great example of this occurrence. I honestly don’t think most people really get the concept but are nonetheless thrilled to be smitten by my enthusiasm for it. This might be a reflection of how little enthusiasm they have in their lives, but that’s a whole different topic for another post.

The pursuit for new artifacts for the Resurfaced series is unwavering, regardless of how commercially viable the project turns out to be. The voice of reason has long left the building. And creatively, that’s a good thing.

The piece above is from a wall in the Saint Pauli district of Hamburg, Germany.

Resurfaced Hamburg

Resurfaced in Hamburg Hauptbahnhof

A Resurfaced piece from a past visit to the Saint George neighborhood where Hamburg’s Hauptbahnhof, the city’s beautifully gritty main train station is located.

Hugo and Christina's wedding getaway car, a shiny Bentley

Hugo & Christina’s Wedding

Charlotte and I counted that all-in-all, so far, we’ve attended 9 weddings. That’s including our own. This snapshot is from Saturday’s fairytale wedding outside of Saint Alban’s Church in Copenhagen where my cousin Per’s son Hugo and his lovely Christina were married. It was a most beautiful day full of sunshine and love.

Painting Again

Painting Again

Painting again. It’s been way too long since I last held a brush against a canvas. Might have been in the late summer of 2019, a month or so before we left for Vietnam – which seems like such a long time ago now. The pandemic really time-warped life.

second amendment

Second Amendment Insanity

That so many flag-waving Americans hold the Second Amendment so dearly to their heart is really hard for me to grasp. It’s Second Amendment insanity if you ask me. The Bill of Rights amendment was ratified in 1791, a long, long time ago when bears, mountain lions, and outlaws were omnipresent. It was an era when being an owner of slaves and a misogynist were both acceptable and admired behavior. It was over 200 fucking years ago.

I totally understand that the Second Amendment has been weaponized politically. It’s all about belonging to the movement. And that the masses that don’t understand why automatic rifles and military-grade weapons should not be so readily available to them simply don’t have the capacity to look beyond their mental rigidity. Well, I get that, too.

The federal legislators in D.C. need to be reminded of how the regulations put in place within the automotive industry – from seatbelts, and airbags to speed limits – have literally saved millions of lives.

Whenever I read or hear about the idiots that insist on being able to stock up on AK-47s, mostly out of principle, I think of this wonderfully poignant sketch.

shredding eras

Shedding and Shredding

The symbolism of the curling paint was too irresistible to not write a few words about here. It made me think of a key recurring theme in my life; the inevitable shedding and shredding of one-layered era to make room for the next – and the imagined promises a new coat of paint hopefully yields creatively and emotionally (and, with hard work and some luck, also financially).

climate change in hurricane season

Washed Ashore

Speaking of the Salton Sea, here’s a new composition themed on climate which is something I actually think heavy-heartedly about from time to time. The main photo with the washed ashore motorboat was captured somewhere near Bombay Beach while the hurricane in the background was created for dramatic effect.

#climatechange #hurricaneseason #environment #composition