Momentarily: Los Angeles

After a weeklong excursion that took me to the foothills of Mount Whitney, through steep roads leading up to the White Mountains, across a blisteringly hot Mojave desert and sleepy California City, and then several delightful coastal towns along the curvy, Pacific coast, I’ve now returned to the intense urban life of Los Angeles.

I am at home nowhere. I am at home everywhere. A nomad. A journeyman without a measurable quest other than to acquire and document visual and emotional experiences wherever the dust settles momentarily. It was here on the west side of this sprawling metropolis, so summarily abbreviated L.A., that the very first chapters of my life’s narrative were written, nearly six decades ago.

I’ve been fortunate to have walked within many of the world’s metropolises, none as seducing nor impenetrable as my hometown, Los Angeles. This is a complex, concrete maze chock full of people, prospects, and promises. A place brimming with hustlers and bustlers, demons, dealers, and deniers. So many draws. So many pitfalls. Yet the flow of those willing to roll the dice and pull the handle here seems endless. Los Angeles is more Vegas than Las Vegas.

Along the city’s broad, expansive boulevards, often lined with soaring, gently swaying palm trees, miles of deep crevasses in the warm, tire-worn asphalt, and gnarly, slithering cracks on the surface of the city’s mostly superfluous sidewalks.

I was born in this unrelentingly evolving city where disconcerted opulence is omnipresent and heart-wrenching impecuniousness is involentarily exhibited twenty-four-seven. I wonder what future archeologists will uncover in the bowels of L.A.’s gaping storm drains and reeking gutters.

I’ve loved and loathed Los Angeles throughout most of my life and cannot help my longing to return to this remarkably alluring place again and again. I am here to see family and friends, to work on the Resurfaced project, and, finally, to fearlessly process and rinse through deep, burdensome emotions carried way too long.